Shoulda Woulda Coulda

Well folks, tomorrow may not be pretty! Last week I didn't get to weigh in as we were out of town and I was NOT comfortable driving around a town I'm unfamiliar with in a winter storm. I now regret that decision as I'm not to sure that tomorrow's weigh in will be a good one. I hate excuses so I will try not to blame being a woman, having company last weekend, changing medicine, or having an EXTREMELY stressful week... Nope, it's all my own responsibility/ fault! I shouldn't have allowed myself to not track while family was visiting. I should have found alternative ways to deal with increased stress other than finding solace in chocolate. I could have realized this week would be more challenging thanks to increased water retention and made fitness and nutritional adjustments to compensate. But, here I am, unable to change what has already happened this week and facing the music (aka scale) tomorrow.

The thought of quitting has, more than once, crossed my mind. It is a challenge to think about what I'm eating and when I'm going to workout daily. It IS a lot easier than it was at the beginning but I find myself wondering if it will ever become a habit? Will I ever be faced with my favorite unhealthy indulgences and be able to eat only a small amount or avoid it altogether? Will I EVER reach the middle of my BMI range (my true personal goal)? Will I ever be content with how far I've come and where I am? Oofda, too many questions for a Friday evening!

I think I will just stick to what I know. I know that tomorrow I will head to my WW meeting with the understanding that it won't be a pleasant experience but will be another step in my journey of betterment. I will go to the Y and workout tomorrow and Sunday. I will track my food this weekend! I will also be planning my meals for the week including the Thanksgiving feast. I will get caught up at the school and look forward to a shortened school week. I will be doing the Turkey Trot Thanksgiving morning and, instead of Black Friday shopping, I plan to attend an early morning spin class and burn off some of those extra Thanksgiving treats! Maybe a little shopping or sledding later would add in some extra steps and burn some more calories. :)

So maybe I shoulda tracked better this week, woulda loved to have lost some more weight, coulda prepared a little better but I know that the journey isn't over. I still hope that this blog encourages and supports other in their efforts. Don't give up, know that others are dealing with the same issues as you and use that information to overcome your hardships, I know I do!